Hugs=Good
Thanks, everyone. I am feeling better today; not nearly as fragile as I did yesterday. Virtual hugs (and real hugs from my husband) make the world a much brighter place.
I have been reflecting on why I took yesterday so hard, and I realized that for most of my life, I have been a very healthy person. Sure, I get colds and stuff and I have suffered a few injuries but when it comes to those diagnostic health issues, I have never really had one. Everytime a doctor has ordered a test for me, from MRIs to dye injections to evaluate my thyroid function, the verdict has always been: nothing wrong, perfectly normal.
So I fully expected my bone density test to be completely non-eventful. But it wasn't. For the first time, the test actually revealed an actual disease. That, combined with having to have a second mammogram (a fairly normal occurrence) really sent me spinning. I think I wondered if my good luck has finally run out and from now on, the news would get even worse.
It probably won't, of course, but yesterday I felt very mortal. Today, I realize that there are people who are dealing with real health issues (hell, I read some of their blogs and so do you!) and I should not cross that particular bridge until it actually is my only option.
In other words, I am trying really hard to get over myself. Thanks again for your support.
I have been reflecting on why I took yesterday so hard, and I realized that for most of my life, I have been a very healthy person. Sure, I get colds and stuff and I have suffered a few injuries but when it comes to those diagnostic health issues, I have never really had one. Everytime a doctor has ordered a test for me, from MRIs to dye injections to evaluate my thyroid function, the verdict has always been: nothing wrong, perfectly normal.
So I fully expected my bone density test to be completely non-eventful. But it wasn't. For the first time, the test actually revealed an actual disease. That, combined with having to have a second mammogram (a fairly normal occurrence) really sent me spinning. I think I wondered if my good luck has finally run out and from now on, the news would get even worse.
It probably won't, of course, but yesterday I felt very mortal. Today, I realize that there are people who are dealing with real health issues (hell, I read some of their blogs and so do you!) and I should not cross that particular bridge until it actually is my only option.
In other words, I am trying really hard to get over myself. Thanks again for your support.
posted by allison | 4:09 PM
1 Comments:
Yeah, I think it'd be a very emotional realisation for me too. It doesn't make a difference to your immediate reaction that other people struggle daily with illness; the response is just the inevitable shock of knowing that you're fragile, when you've always taken good health for granted. Of course in your case it's something you can live with day-to-day with very little practical change, but that doesn't make it less shocking.
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